Hey, I know you're not gonna read this, I just want to get this heavy feeling out of my chest.
It's been a couple years since depression hit me, and it's like, constantly a thing gnawing at the back of my mind. Eating away at my sanity with every waking day and every passing minute. Streaming on Twitch was an outlet for me and an unusual form of therapy, because I got to talk and interact with a lot of people who share the same interests and meet all these cool people online through the power of social media and such, reintroduced me to an old childhood happiness I visited every now and then in the form of Newgrounds. (Yes I got back due to Friday Night Funkin, but what made me stay was the joy I felt playing flash games, watching hilarious or cool animations, listening to cool audio and submitting my shitty art here)
Unfortunately, I think I'm regressing back because most things I love, care for and enjoy don't bring me the same satisfaction or fulfillment they used to, and I've been holding back this feeling of being pressured to constantly be at my best, and it's affecting my job and myself. I feel empty and dead inside. Constant hours of streaming, working and emotional damage is probably taking it's toll on my mental health, and I feel not just burnt out, but actively seeking an end, a way out if you will.
What I'm trying to get at here, is that I'm going away. I don't know when I'll be back, if ever. And it's only a matter of me dealing with and accepting that I need some time away from everything and start anew, hopefully I do come back and make more shit I really like doing, and reviewing stuff made by people on this site.
And if not, it was an honor to have met you all. Thank you.
If you've made it here, let it be known that I do appreciate it, and that you're awesome, stay awesome.
I'm gonna miss you all,
See you when I see you.
-Gab
