How are you today?

I hope your day is going well.

I'm trying to get back into streaming, and so far I've been doing random scribbles on other sites, but I'm saving that 69th art slot for a very special piece I recently finished for Piconjo day! (YEAH)

So I hope to start becoming more active here and making more posts in the future

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but in all seriousness, I'm quite hyped for it! WOOOOOOO

(Also Piconjo day) WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Okay starting things off, IT'S BEEN A YEAR ALREADY WTF?!

Man, it has been quite the rollercoaster ride. From good things to bad things and every other little thing in between, I never quite expected that a rhythm game about a small listerine haired rat bastard rapping and wanting to do things to his girlfriend was gonna end up putting me over in the streaming category!

Shit's wild as hell and so I've come to make this post.

First off, I want to thank the Funkin' crew of @ninjamuffin99 @phantomarcade @kawaisprite and @evilsk8r for the funny popular rhythm game known as Friday Night Funkin', it was a generally amazing experience having played it for the first time (on NewGrounds of course), even if I wasn't there for it when it began all the way back October 2020, this game made me fall in love with NewGrounds all over again, and it made me feel like I wanted to participate in a community where you can be who you'd want to be, and meet like-minded individuals and form bonds that go beyond borders.

Secondly, I want to thank my viewers, friends, family and internet friends for giving me the boost I needed to actually TRY and be more active in communities like Discord, Twitter and NewGrounds and for helping me achieve what I've always dreamed of doing my entire life.

It wasn't easy getting here, there were some ups and plenty of downs, and most of those downs were so harsh and devastating that I've never really truly gotten to appreciate how fortunate I am to still be here and sharing this with you all. For starters, I was VERY MUCH depressed and jaded beyond redemption (or so I thought) drifting from one dead-end job to another, risking homelessness, broke and absolutely despairing the thought of another tomorrow, life wasn't exactly being nice either, what with my mom getting covid19 and my dad suffering from a stroke at the same time last Christmas 2021, to me nearly ending it all and killing myself because I thought no one would be there for me anymore, it was tough getting here while dealing with those problems, I'd pretty much hoped to just explode on the spot and die a miserable death.

It was certainly not a good thing to look back at, but I needed to learn and improve upon my mistakes because that's one of the things that keep me going, and all of you have helped get me back on track, so just know that I want to thank all of you very much for sticking with me throughout these times and that I hope to continue advocating NewGrounds on stream for everyone to see, discover and enjoy.

Shoutout to @bepixel for grounding me and keeping in touch with me and with what's been up back then up until now, I'm so happy for them too seeing as they're pursuing what they want to achieve and that's epic.

Thanks for one year, and here's to a billion more!

NewGrounds for life!

TL;DR: THANKS FOR ONE YEAR ON TWITCH AND NEWGROUNDS YEAH!

-Gabo

EDIT: FUCK I FORGOT IT WAS ALSO THIS ACCOUNT'S FIRST YEAR ON NEWGROUNDS AAAAAAAAA

Mother's day today in the Philippines, and tomorrow's gonna be the elections.

May any entity out there have mercy on us after Mother's Day

Yep, I did it again. Man I really gotta come up with stuff to post here now, so much has changed in the short span of two weeks, it's unbelievable how quickly time marches on when you're busy with stuff.

I hope y'all have an awesomesauce day and keep being great!

And if you're not feeling too great, then hopefully you get past what ails you and become great!

For those who are curious how the haircut looks: (Trigger Warning, it's Twitter)



https://twitter.com/Warvester9392/status/1519945955193221120?s=20&t=Cat4tB1k_3qIysR88zWw7A

I had to make a new one anyways, so here~!

OH YEAH THANKS FOR 69 LOL

Easiest method,

Warning:

Results may vary

Hey, I know you're not gonna read this, I just want to get this heavy feeling out of my chest.

It's been a couple years since depression hit me, and it's like, constantly a thing gnawing at the back of my mind. Eating away at my sanity with every waking day and every passing minute. Streaming on Twitch was an outlet for me and an unusual form of therapy, because I got to talk and interact with a lot of people who share the same interests and meet all these cool people online through the power of social media and such, reintroduced me to an old childhood happiness I visited every now and then in the form of Newgrounds. (Yes I got back due to Friday Night Funkin, but what made me stay was the joy I felt playing flash games, watching hilarious or cool animations, listening to cool audio and submitting my shitty art here)

Unfortunately, I think I'm regressing back because most things I love, care for and enjoy don't bring me the same satisfaction or fulfillment they used to, and I've been holding back this feeling of being pressured to constantly be at my best, and it's affecting my job and myself. I feel empty and dead inside. Constant hours of streaming, working and emotional damage is probably taking it's toll on my mental health, and I feel not just burnt out, but actively seeking an end, a way out if you will.

What I'm trying to get at here, is that I'm going away. I don't know when I'll be back, if ever. And it's only a matter of me dealing with and accepting that I need some time away from everything and start anew, hopefully I do come back and make more shit I really like doing, and reviewing stuff made by people on this site.

And if not, it was an honor to have met you all. Thank you.

If you've made it here, let it be known that I do appreciate it, and that you're awesome, stay awesome.

I'm gonna miss you all,

See you when I see you.

-Gab

I'm gonna try to post more here I promise!

I was just happy about posting at random here, and on twitter,

but honestly, I think I should prioritize this site because I love seeing other people's work and passions here more!

I'll try to do more stuff here hopefully I'm just starting out so I hope to meet more of y'all!

I'm OPENING COMMISSSIONSSSSSSSSS

(not sure how many I can take, probably just a few)

https://twitter.com/Warvester9392/status/1499210532255322113?s=20&t=5qtS1xKmDaZAaC1LXXGXmA